My Devotional

"But for now, three things last-
Trust
Hope
Love
And the greatest of these is love
Pursue Love!"
1 Corinthians 13:13

I was flipping through my bible and just scamming some versus and came across this one that struck me, like as if lightning has struck a person. This past year was probably one of the most challenging years I have ever been faced with, and when it all started I found myself very angry, and not just angry with myself but angry with God. Instead of blaming myself, I found myself blaming the Lord. Well being angry got me no where but more miserable then I was before, and I gradually came around, took a long time but it did happen, to where I knew I had to stop being so angry and face this challenge as a lesson that needed to be taught, and I needed to learn. I started to pray again, something I have not done since I was a little girl, and I started to have hope, hope in myself, the Lord, and the situation. And then with hope came trust, I have to say this process took the longest "trusting", not just myself but God, and then not just God, but the person God had placed in my life Will. You know when a person has been lied to and hurt so many times by multiple people, they can go either way, well my way was closing a door or building a wall. A wall that I at the time did not want to be tested. But it was tested and well the wall that I thought was strong, so strong that no one could ever break down, 'failed'! I started to open up to new things and to some old things, I wasn't always so bitter, and I once had Hope, Trust and Love in God, but I seemed to let all the bad things that occurred throughout my life over come all the good, which led me to be lost. I found myself trusting in God again, and then I started to go back to church, I never realized how much I missed it, the structure, the people, and most of all the worshiping. And once I conquered those two things, came love, love in God, my family, my other half and even grew to love the challenge, because if it was not for that challenge I would not be where I am now, not in my faith, not with Will, and not HAPPY! For the fist time in along time I can say I am happy and I love my lord for everything he has done for me, and I trust in him and I have hope!! There is not a challenge the lord will put you through if he knew you could not handle it, now how your attitude is towards it, is up to you, and will determine how handle it!!