This Too Shall Pass

The past few days I have found myself so angry not necessarily towards God but towards others and the situation, I have found that there was hatred starting to build up and I am not the type of person to feel hatred! So while I was in my car alone I just let it out balled my eyes out asked the lord for forgiveness, and to release all the hatred and anger I started to build up, because I do not want that to eat me up, what is life with hatred and anger, besides loneliness and emptiness! I have had my fair share of that and do not want to go backwards, I rather move forward! My main question I have been asking my Lord is to help me follow the right path, I know that it will have it's major bumps but well worth it. And honestly I feel as if I am/or have been going down the right path I just kind of sort of hit a T turn right or left, and I am not sure what direction he is wanting me to go, and how about he wants me to take it I guess. I do know that with this major speed bump in my life right now my Lord has so much more for me to learn out of this, and so many more people and families I will be helping, if I do what I believe he wants me to do, he will provide much more than what he has been already! I must keep my faith, hope and trust in him if I am to do this, and I will, because right must be done, if I do not do it then who will?! And this is for the well being my kids and many more other families who have been hurt by this individual! I do know that the feeling of hatred and anger shall pass, I no longer feel hatred but love, and I am trying to get over my anger because I know my Lord has plans for me!!

“I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)”

“Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

Unjust......

I do not understand the polk county judicial system in any way. It does not make any since in any way shape or form. Two weeks ago I filed for a custody/parenting time modification, and I waited two weeks for only the judge to deny it, why? I have no idea there was plenty of proof, proving that Stan is defaulting in every single clause there is, and it is so, so frustrating. I could go on with exactly what he is doing, but the main thing is he talking badly about myself and my fiance to the kids, called my fiance a chink, and yet Judge Horner is so bias and has such poor judgement, that apparently racism isn't a beg deal to him, how is that safe for my kids to spend half there time with a racist, and angry person. To this day he will not talk to me, answer my phone call nor call me back. He is irresponsible, and seems to get away with everything and face no consequnces for his actions. Still has porn magazines lying around his house for my children to see which they did last Wed. I hate this feeling of defeat, of my kids saftey out of my hands. But, I will not give up this battle is not over and I will pray as much as I can for God to give me the strength, courage and wisdom to fight this, and make it right.

I am also going to look into starting a petition to get Horner off the bench due to bad bias judgement, I am not the only one who has dealt with his bad judgement. Look him up online, his status as a judge is 37% an F, an F come polk county residents stop voting for him!!!!!!! Do what is right and not what is convenient stop this man who has bad judgement!

"Great spirits shall always encounter violent opposition from mediocre minds"--Einstein

Taking It One Day At A Time

It seems as if things are going great and then something else happens, I am not here to complain in any way shape or form just kind of vent about the polk county judicial system. It is so frustrating that they are doing things so, so wrongly....if that even makes since. It isn't right that the kids dad can get away with calling my fiance a chink and cussing me out, defaulting his parenting time to everyother weekend and every wednesday, so I go in to get a custody modification change and they tell me the wrong info when I file, and then the judge denies it when it is clear their dad isn't doing anything that he agreed to in the parenting agreement at all. He has not reimbursed us for paying his half of the kids health insurance, still to this day will not communicate with me, and also talks badly about myself and Will to the kids. Grow already sheesh!!

So besides this fact, we are all moved into our new apartment and I love it honestly love, it is just perfect for us! Pics will be up soon! The school is great that the kids will be going to and they are all registered and all, Abby starts on the 9th of Sept, she is soooo excited I cannot believe how much she has grown! Titus has a meet and greet on Thursday the third which is stoked to meet his teacher, and he starts the 14th! Kiah will be heading to headstart once they get off their rumps and process his papers! All three of my babies will be in school. But that will be nice to have mornings to just myself and Alakai! We are now dilated to 2 and my cervix is thinning out, and he has dropped tremendously, so any day now eek, I am so excited to meet him, and so ready!

So really in all we are just taking one day at a time which is a nice feeling, not to worry about the next day coming, we are willing to take what God gives us each every day! Which he has provided for our family in so many ways!


PS I am starting a new blog on blogger just for my photography but I want to switch it up a bit, figure out a name not sure what though, any suggestions?